My first post in a while...sorry

So back to school so I'll probably be posting more but maybe not.. I told people that I would start posting again.. ::cough cough:: you know who you are. but I don't have much to say. Just wanting to get everything right like with Tony and Aaron. Stupid Tony, I was just trying to keep peace and yet, he 'defriended' me on facebook, how more childish can he get! Then there's Aaron who I love so much but he will always just be a friend, I wish I could do more for him but I just can't. I really want to be so much more for him.. I am after all the 'mother of his daughter' Sammy.. long story there but we wouldn't make each other happy.. we're not right for each other, we've gotten into too many fights for that. I have such a headache but it's going away.. I took my meds.. it's annoying I'm addicted to them that I go into withdrawal when I forget to take them for a while, I get enough headaches anyways, it doesn't help.. stupid dehydration 24/7. Then there's college and I want to apply to USC but I just feel like I'm stressing and worrying about it too much. And more I think about it even if I got accepted I wouldn't go there so why am I even applying? But it was my dream for so long so I feel bad about backing down on my dream but really if God is leading me in a different direction why am I still so stuck on it? I need to just fully trust God with this but that is really hard to do. And Dave is getting sappy being away from me, I don't mind it, but he needs to get out there and meet people. Gahhh.. this headache..it's making me sick to my stomach.. STUPID WITHDRAWAL!!!!!!!! Classes start tomorrow and 3 aps are going to be hard to take. Then I am trying to get my private study 6th hour but I haven't talked to Chris about it and I don't know how that works.. I'm gonna have to figure this all out and go into the counseling office before school and get evil looks by the secretary.. she scares me.. For now I'm gonna go and see if I can fall asleep before it's the first day of school tomorrow. And get rid of this headache... gah.. need. ibuprofen.