Pure Thought

So I started making videos on YouTube for my own Video Blog but I can't do it often because of the editing involved. I like to make things perfect when it comes to videos because I have made professional videos. Also when I'm typing or talking I believe that it is my pure thought. When I edit a video I feel like I'm making things more interesting but I'm taking out some of my true thought and how my mind works. When I'm typing out a blog post I try to not edit things, yes, if I'm distracted I'll go rearrange words but I would never delete big parts of what I wrote because that's my thought process and that's who I am. I want people to know who I am and how my mind works is a part of who I am. So from now on I've decided for YouTube I from now on will only upload directly to YouTube so I won't even be tempted to edit my videos. Yes, this could be blamed on me being lazy but that's not it. I truly believe that everything I say or think is a part of what I'm trying to convey. This may end up making things more boring and with empty space in some videos but I will get better and soon enough I'll be able to make a cohesive flowing videos and this will make even my everyday speech more entertaining and I'll become a better storyteller overall. I'm really tired and kinda distracted so sorry if this post is vague and confusing but this is the best I could do in my current situation.