The Boy is Sick

So instead of going out to a Super Bowl Party today I got to be at my boy's house taking care of him because somehow within the few hours we were apart three people in his house contracted the stomach flu. Yea, not a pleasant place but just being with him makes me so happy. He may be sleeping in his bed behind me but for some reason I cannot think of a place I would rather be. I'm exhausted to a point where I'm about to fall over into a coma but I'm here to take care of him. He tells me I'm the first person to really make him feel special and to truly care about him. This makes me so happy because that means him and I will have a very strong bond but that also frightens me to a huge extent. He's never had another experience like I'm giving him so how can he tell if I really am the right person for him. I have truly never felt in such a right place as I do in this relationship but I also don't want to let him get away from me. He somehow out of every other guy in my life has made a home in my heart. I just never want this to end. I don't even want to think about going away to school next year because he's going to be here and from these past six months I know how hard a long distance relationship is. This is just such a weird thing for someone like me who has had so many different guys chasing after her and being able to control all of them with one look. This is truly the first guy I can look at and think that I would be happy being with him forever. I know that he's always going to make me happy, I've never had such confidence in a relationship before. He is a guy who has a rough side of listening to metal music but also so sincere about everything and so heart-felt that he writes poetry. He's every girls dream and somehow I beat all of them to him. It truly wasn't until a few minutes ago looking at him sleep that I have realized I truly have fallen for this guy. I have been in love before but never like this. Most of the time I owned the guys heart, a guy, for the very first time, owns my heart and it scares me to death that he could break it so easily. I now know what all consuming love is and how it truly can change a person from the inside out.
So Josh... I love you with all of who I am and I would truly be lost without you.
Also, feel better!!!